so, it looks like im going to New York on wednesday! It's quite a weird trip, but it's a trip to NY nonetheless and that can't be a bad thing. The primary purpose of going is to go to a court hearing on friday. You see my mother's like 80 something year old uncle has alzhiemers. His wife recently passed away and his niece (who was on the wifes side) didnt care to mention anything to our family until weeks after her passing. She also was arranging to take my Uncle Noel back with her and put him up in a nursing home which would be nowhere near alllllllllllllllllllll his family. So you see, we are going to have a custody battle over my Grand Uncle, trying to bring him back to south florida where he has lots of family that would be able to visit him (not that he would remember any of us). So that's why we are going. But everybody knows that i cannot go to the great city of New York and miss an opportunity to catch musical of sorts. So... perhaps i will be able to see Chicago or Millie or something good (so many to chose from). So if my blogs are a little scarce in the days to come, i will be leaving on wed and be back on saturday. look for me then! :-P And P.S thanks to those of you who are prayin! please add to the list that i will be motivated and be able to study, becuase so far it has been very hard! There are alot of discouragement that goes along with that! THANKS YA'LL... ehem gracias amigos... ehem... preciate it peeps! lol
(perfect mix)

So..... I went to church today... Calvary Chapel Ft. Lauderdale! I love it... Well anyway, I went to the bookstore afterward and looked in the 'single/young adult' section. I was thinking look... things are getting a little out of control here... I need to simmer down now (refer to prayer request #1 on last post). I mean really It's not like a boy crazy thing thats going on, its more like a husband longing situation. So anyway, as I was looking through the lovely selection of 'im lonely and want a man, self-help books', I came across a few interesting titles, Finding Mr. Right, If Sigleness is a Gift, Whats the Return Policy?, and of course I cruised past the, I kissed dating goodbye (and rather quickly). After making my way up and down the fully stocked rows of books, I stopped on the well known devotional, Lady In Waiting. I have many friends who have read this book, and I have heard lots of good things about it, so I decided to pick it up myself and give it a quick flip through. Well I opened up and landed directly on Chapter 1. After reading the first paragraph I realized, that this was the book that I needed to buy. Someone was perhaps making a funny up there, but coincidence or not I found myself at the checkout line with my new book.

Lady In Waiting by Debby Jones & Jackie Kendall

Ch. 1
The big day is over. Your roommate married a wonderful guy and you were the maid of honor. You shared your roomate's joy, but now you wrestle with the envy's painful grip. as the happy couple drives to the perfect honeymoon, you sit alone in an empty apartment, drowning your envy and self-pity with a half gallon of Heavenly Hash ice cream.
Does this scenario sound familiar?

dodo dodo doo doo dododo (to the tune of the twilight zone)

Prayer Requests:

1. I would calm down with my new facination with boys... (lol ok not new but hieghtened, Darn weddings!) or maybe
pray that i find one!!! :-P
2. NCLEX exam (nursing state boards) to be taking Dec 12!!! I havent even begun to be ready!!!!
3. That I will know and be confident in where I willl start nursing, and that my fears about it will cease!

THANKS FOR YOUR PRAYERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They are greatly needed! GREATLY! REALLY REALLY! SISTER IN CHRIST BEGGIN' for PRAYERS HERE!!! lol

but seriously, if you could do that for me that would be greaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!

Is it wrong to desire to have a husband? and think about it all the time? and like really want one?

Well as a follow-up to my last post, The wedding was beautiful.
I will venture to say that this wedding was one of thee most beautiful, and emotionally stirring weddings i have ever been to or been apart of. Seeing my sister-at-heart looking like an angel, fully glowing as she gazed into the eyes of her beloved! makes my heart go pitter patter, and brings tears to my eyes. Tears of joy and happiness! What a blessing it was to witness the union of these two souls.... i truley feel like i was witnessing a part of God that i have yet to experience... hmmm... my heart smiles!
P.S I CAUGHT THE BOUQET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(perhaps i dont have to wait to long to experience it?!?!?! lol)

The time is closing in. It's no longer a fuzzy image in the back of my mind. My Dear Friend is getting married and as she has it, I willl be standing with her, privaleged and blessed as her Maid of Honor. On Sunday, that very moment will mark one of my most memorable and precious moments. I will have the honor of witnessing, and being apart of, an event which marks a new error, a spiritual transformation, and the beginning of a new world of love and happiness for two of the most wonderful people.

My Sister-at-heart-Bride-to-be, has been so wonderful to me in the last four years that we have been friends (see song below, it kind of says it all, well not ALL, but alot). In my freshman year of college when I got randomly paired up with some girl from Orlando, I never would have imagined that she would've touch my life so deeply. She taught me alot of things, as we were roomates for (basically) four years. The first thing that stood out to me about her was that she truley cared about me and loved me. A perfect stranger!! What a great witness of Christ's love in her, and what a great friend! So As I said, let me say it again, on Sunday October 19th it will be my complete privilage and honor to stand up with her and before God to witness the marriage of Joyce Goulart and Aaron Pierce.



*Lyrics
More Than You'll Ever Know by Watermark

Somethin' brought you to my mind today
I thought about the funny ways you make me laugh
And yet I feel like it's okay to cry with you
Somethin' about just being with you
When I leave I feel like I've been near God
And that's the way it ought to be

'Cause you been more than a friend to me
You fight off my enemies
'Cause you've spoken truth over my life
And you'll never know what it means to me
Just to know you've been on your knees for me
Oh, you have blessed my life
More than you'll ever know
More than you'll ever know

You had faith, when I had none
You prayed God would bring me a brand new song
When I didn't think I could find the strength to sing
And all the while I'm hoping that I'll
Do the kind of praying for you that you've done for me
And that's the way it ought to be

You've carried me
You've taken upon a burden that wasn't your own
And may the blessing return to you...
A hundredfold, oh yeah...
A hundredfold, oh yeah...

Why do we blog? It seems to be the topic of discussion. As one of my favorite blogger's stated, for her it is cathartic (emotionally purging). Another has said that it brings a feeling of community. A qoute from this same blog shares that blogging brings the psychological you, from the inside to the outside.

Well, I too have been thinking along those same lines recently. However, the question that has been resonating in my mind is not why I blog, but rather what makes a good blog. You know it is a matter of fact, that I am not one to keep my word when it comes to the promise of consistancy with blogging. And no matter how hard I have tried to be an A+ blogger, the fact of the matter is that without inspiration, motivation, or contemplation, the word blog quickly transforms itself from being a verb, to becoming a noun. In that, it swiftly becomes a thing that you read and comment on, rather than the act of composing and publishing for the world to read.

So what is it? What makes a good blog? Well if proper grammar and correct sentence formation is a necessity then I might as well go to 'start' click on 'turn of computer', and wait for windows to finish shutting down. I don't think I ever learned, where, exactly, to place, the comma. You know if it were up to me (if you havent noticed already) the comma would go wherever I felt there should be a pause. I think since it is my expression, I should be able to dictate, through the use of a comma, where, and when, I would like people to pause, when reading. Don't you? (English majors, and journalists do not respond)

Well, is it the topic? Because if I were to honestly say why I do not blog as frequently as I would like to, my excuse would be that I just dont think that I have anything interesting to say. Who really wants to read my thoughts and contemplations on what makes an interesting thought and contemplation anyway?

Well, what do i like to read? I like blogs that show personality and character. After all, dont you like to know who you are communicating with? I like blogs that are vulnerable. The kinds that seem like you aren't really staring at a box of wires and tubes, but one that sings lub dub as you read the words straight from someones heart and soul. I like the kind that read so gracefully as if the blogger was speaking directly to you. Interesting? well who doesnt like interesting. But, if I had to choose between spending ten minutes listening to some good, late night, ramblings of this that or the other, spoken with personality and laughter, giving insight to a persons heart, bringing simplicity and honesty, over something interesting.... well I think you can figured out just which I would prefer.

Blog comming soon...

how do you like the new look?

Really i gotta go to sleep... but tomorrow is a new day...

Ill blog then.

sweet dreams!

becuase of my lack of ability to keep this blog interesting... i have decided to start over!
so on that note... Hello up there, Its me down here!
my very first blog:

'Wednesday, July 09, 2003'
Well I have decided to join the 'wonderful world of blog.' I have never been one to be considered as a remarkable writer, nor do I have the vocabulary or grammatical skills to separate me from a ten year old. However, I have chosen to take up the challenge of self-expression. This challenge finds me intertwined in a slew of emotions and minor confusion. But to the imitation of a certain blogger (Jeanie, as is her pen name) I have chosen to give you an intimate portrait of myself at my discretion. This journey I hope acts as a testimony of hope, realization, healing, and growth. So welcome to a bit of intimacy from a girl who finds comfort in walls.