Hello up there, it's me down here!: 12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006

Sunday, December 18, 2005

With all things in life, we as humans always have choices. We have the option to be optomistic or the option to be pessamistic. Usually these options feel more like pre-destinations. depending on the situation. but the truth of the matter is that since the beginning we were given the ability of free-will. Adam and Eve were created not as a carbon copy of each other and not as some sort of robotic worshiper, but as free willed people. created and set in a perfect communion with God. They too had options. The choice they took sets the stage for the types of choices many of us are first inclined to make. But the story shows that from the very beginning it is clear that we always have a choice in life. Therefore it is our will to be happy, it is our will to be fearless, and hopeful, our will to be optomistic and it is our will to stand on truth. Even just typing that my body hesistates at the thought that it is my will to feel and be all those things. My first response with unconfort is fear, my first response with the unknown is pessimissim. My first thought in challenge is weakness. If what I believe is true then all those things are unnecesary feelings and hardships that I 'will' into my own life. The bible says:
  • For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. Romans 8:15
  • Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold. 2 Corinthians 3:12
  • Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all contemplate the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. 2 Corinthians 3:17-18
  • For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1
  • I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life. John 5:24

We've been given Choices and we have been given free will. Two things that have been known to bring both freedom and hardships. Our flesh is still weak, our choices still flawed. But because we have the ability to hear the Word and believe it, it is our choice to be pessemistic and fearful, timid and weak. Or in all things, we can choose to believe in the Spirit of the Lord that gives us freedom, fearlessness, hope, power, love, self-discipline, and boldness.

Every December this country goes crazy over presents and parties, trips and visits. 'Holiday Trees' are sold and this month seems to give everyone an excuse to celebrate. Christmas a time to celebrate the birth of Jesus becomes lost in presents and less controversial icons such as santas and elves. The truth is we are given a Christmas gift 365 days a year. It's the gift to hear the word of God and the Will to believe in it!

all that to say tomorrow (monday night 7p-7a) I start the new job. im trembling with fear and im weakened with self doubt, but the Truth of the Word now at the tip of my tongue will be as sharp as any hindering thought i may have. So pray that these truths Stand firm under my feet and that i will go bold and fearless tomorrow and know that my path is already laid for me and all i hve to do is enjoy the ride!

-debs







Thursday, December 08, 2005

Pembroke Pines Mitigation Bank
As of Nov. 29th I have been officially living 'again' in South Florida. Pembroke Pines to be exact. right in the middle of ft. lauderdale and miami! Since this short time i have realized that Orlando did have something to offer me. Friends old and new, family, employement, and some well needed separation from certain things. so what did i do? I left. Yes, there are reasons for me leaving and yes i guess this is apart of the 'plan'... whatever plan that may be. but i am still here nervous, anxious, and slightly trembling with the unknown... can i handle this place? this job? where will i be next? Lord only knows.